Perplexity

Going thru' a tough time now. Someone close just found out that she's probably gonna go thru one of the toughest periods of her life. And my insecurities are plaguing me like hell. I'm beginning to wonder whether I'm a tough person to be with.. Do I ask for too much? Am i demanding? I hate my insecurities. I don't want to blame my past for it, nor the ppl ard me; but I dunno what to do.

I want ppl to know the real me. Who I am. What I do. Does everyone have a wall around them? Am I a coward to hide behind this wall?

I hang on to ppl too much. And yet I wanna live life as a hermit. What a contradiction. Sigh...