[why why why]

why do i keep running,
when the answer is in front of me.

why do i keep searching,
if there's something already there for me.

why do i hurt u,
when all u've done is been there for me.

why do u care for me,
after all i've put u through?

why am i writing this?
cos there's nothing to say other than i'm sorry.
(please forgive me)

[hey gorgeous ;)]

S: Lives life for fun
A: Gorgeous
F: wild and crazy, people adore you
I: Loves to kiss
Y: Loved by everybody

Y:Loved by everybody

A: Gorgeous



A: Gorgeous
B: Loves people
C: Best Smile
D: Has one of the best personalities ever
E: Freakin' beautiful eyes!
F: wild and crazy, people adore you
G: Never let people tell you what to do
H: Easy to fall in love with
I: Loves to kiss
J: Freaking Rowdy
K: Really silly
L: REALLY easy to fall in love with
M: makes dating fun
N: the best gf/bf you could ever ask 4
O: Is a freak in bed
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: great girlfriend/boyfriend
S: Lives life for fun
T: GREAT kisserU: gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Loved by everybody
Z: Lives life for fun


I definitely agree with the gorgeous bit lol. ;)

[my non-existent core muscles]

Finally tried out Pilates. Signed up for weekly classes at Clementi Sports Hall. I thought the class was gonna be full of aunties...but actually, there was only 1. Haha. And she was a happening auntie..so yeah...10 beautiful young ladies doing Pilates.

First lesson of the day (self taught): Never eat before exercise.
I was hungry, or rather, bored because I was 45 mins early for the class (why do the buses seem to cooperate when u have ample time, and never appear when u're running late?). To kill time I went to KFC wanting to eat something light - like popcorn chicken. Since I bought the meal, I thought I'd pack the sidedish (mash potatoes) home (recall: LIGHT food). Somehow the waiter mumbled something and I blindly nodded and before I knew it my meal was upsized to cheese fries. So there I was reading Robin Cook's "Shock" and before I knew it, my cheese fries, which I usually NEVER finish, was 3/4 gone. And boy was I full. Needless to say, during the session, especially when we had to do "child position" and others which required us to lie on our tummy, I was like....nooooooo why did I eat? Well, lesson learnt. I'll stick to just reading next time I'm bored - minus the food. Thank God I didn't puke.

Second lesson: Pilates is not easy
I think the (basic) Yoga classes that I attended were much easier (then again, maybe it's because I never progressed to Level 2). The instructor seemed to want to get a "yes" out of me when she asked if anyone had any back problems. I didn't nod at first but after her long lecture about how those with back problems have to be extra careful, she looked at me again, so I said yes. Do I look like I've a back problem? Either that or she has inbuilt back problem detector radar. Lol. She asked me to lie on double mats and paid me extra attention during the workout. Good for me. Yay.

Third lesson (something I erm...already know): My core muscles are non-existent/pathetic
By the time we got to crunching our abs and raising our legs up 45 degrees, my muscles were trembling and I was wobbling. I guess that's why I need the lessons. I can do it! (with a lot of patience and perseverence...)

Fourth lesson: Damn, the pros make it look so freakin' easy when it's not
Bleah.

[would u do anything for love?]

And I would do anything for love
I'd run right into hell and back
I would do anything for love
I'll never lie to you and that's a fact

But I'll never forget the way you feel right now--
Oh no--no way--
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that
Anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that

Some days it don't come easy
Some days it don't come hard
Some days it don't come at all
and these are the days that never end


Maybe I'm crazy
But it's crazy and it's true
I know you can save me
No one else can save me but you


As long as the planets are turning
As long as the stars are burning
As long as your dreams are comming true--
You better believe it!--


That I would to anything for love
And I'll be there until the final act--
I would do anything for love!
And I'll take a vow and seal a pact--


But I'll never forgive myself if we don't go all the way--
Tonight--
I would do anything for love!
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that...


I would do anything for love
Anything you've been dreaming of
But I just won't do that...


Somedays I pray for silence
Somedays I pray for sould
Somedays I just pray to the God of Sex and Drums and Rock'N Roll


Some night I lose the feeling
Some nights I lose control
Some night I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rolls


Maybe I'm lonely
And that's all I'm qualified to be
There's just one and only
The one and only promise I can keep


As long as the wheels are turning
As long as the fires are burning
As long as your prayers are coming true--
You better believe it--!


That I would do anything for love!
And you know it's true and that's a face
I would do anything for love!
And there'll never be no turning back--


But I'll never do it better than I do it with you
So long--
So long--
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that


I would do anything for love
Anything you've been dreaming of
But I won't do that...


But I'll never stop dreaming of you
Every night of my life--
No way--


I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
I would do anything for love
But I won't do that
I won't do that!


Girl:
Will you raise me up?
Will you help me down?
Will you get me right out if this Godforsaken town?
Will you make it all a little less cold?


Boy:
I can do that!
I can do that!


Girl:
Will you hold me sacred?
Will you hold me tight?
Can you colorize my life I'm so sick of black and white?
Can you make it all a little less old?


Boy:
I can do that!
I can do that!


Girl:
Will you make me some magic
With your own two hands?
Can you build an emerald city with these grains of sand?
Can you give me something I can take home?


Boy:
I can do that!
I can do that!


Girl:
Will you cater to every fantasy I got?
Will ya hose me down with holy water--if I get to hot--?
Will ya take me to places I've never known?


Boy:
I can do that!
I can do that!


Girl:
After a while you'll forget everything
It was a brief interlude
And a midsummer night's fling
And you'll see that it's time to move on


Boy:
I won't do that!
I won't do that!

excuse me if i've returned to my old cynical views about love.
"anything" doesn't exist in reality.

[Namaste London - Main Jahaan Rahoon]

main jahaan rahoon
wherever I am

main kahin bhi hoon
wherever I may be

teri yaad saath hai
your memories are with me
------


main jahaan rahoon
wherever I am

main kahin bhi hoon
wherever I may be

teri yaad saath hai
your memories are with me

kisi se kahoon
to say someone

ke nahi kahoon
or not to say

yeh jo dil ki baat hai
what is in my heart

kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
though apparently world walks with me

per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
yet loneliness engulfs my heart

bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saath hai *3
your memories are with me
-----


main jahaan rahoon
wherever I am

main kahin bhi hoon
wherever I may be

teri yaad saath hai
your memories are with me

kahin to dil mein yaadon ki
sometimes in my heart

ek suli gad jaati hai
pangs of memories dig deep

kahin har ek tasveer bhahut hi dhondhali pad jaati hai
somewhere a picture gets hazier

koi nayi duniya ke naye rango mein khush rehta hai
some enjoy colours of world and are happy

koi sab kuch paake bhi yeh mann hi mann kehta hai
and some even after getting everything say this in their heart

kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
though apparently world walks with me

per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
yet loneliness engulfs my heart

bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad saath hai *3
your memories are with me
------

main jahaan rahoon
wherever I am

main kahin bhi hoon
wherever I may be

teri yaad saath hai
your memories are with me
-----

kahin to beete kal ki jadein
sometimes roots of past

dil mein hi utar jaati hai
dig deep in my heart

kahin jo dhage tute to malaayen bhikar jaati
sometimes a cherished garland breaks apart

koi dil mein jagah nayi, baaton ke liye rakhta hai
some keep space for new things in their hearts

koi apni palko par yaadon ke diye rakhta hai
yet some continue to decorate lamps of memories on their eyelashes

kehne ko saath apane ek duniya chalti hai
though apparently world walks with me

per chhupke is dil mein tanhaayi palti hai
yet loneliness engulfs my heart

bas yaad saath hai
teri yaad sath hai *3
your memories are with me

Courtesy of http://www.bollywhat-forum.com/index.php?topic=17211.0

[Your Five Factor Personality Profile]

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion.You're not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party.Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences.But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your "down time." Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism.It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is medium.You are generally broad minded when it come to new things.But if something crosses a moral line, there's no way you'll approve of it.You are suspicious of anything too wacky, though you do still consider creativity a virtue.

The Five Factor Personality Test

[i'm beaming]

"and thats what i feel is good about u too
u have been thru some very tough times so u know what it is to be down in the dumps

another thing i like about u is that ur so creative
in clothes, in pictures, in everything

ur fun to be with

ur delicate like a lily but u can turn into something tougher when the situation demands

ur smart, ur kind, ur sensible, ur creative

u can rough it out when needed, ur gorgeous, lovely, innocent but at the same time sexy"

"ur the kind of girl any guy would be privileged to go out with..u know when to laugh, when to smile, when to let go, when to pull close, when to praise, when to admonish, when to cry and when to wipe tears"

do i really deserve these kind words?

[Health & Wellness Committee presents...]

COFM Annual Lunch @ Straits Kitchen, Grant Hyatt Hotel. 23rd May 2007.



Yet another thing I was busy with. Food was good...esp the duck. Yummy.

[evening at the park]

I caught A Midsummer Night's Dream with flo at Fort Canning on the 24th of June. It was a refreshing concept, having a theatrical at the park. Very romantic too, since there were many couples having a picnic and cuddling together on picnic mats. Flo and I had our own picnic, which consisted of lots of goodies from polar puffs heh.

The show was very entertaining, though I got a bit lost with the storyline. Never really read the whole play, so I was just counting on the performance to refresh what vague memories I had of the storyline. The cutest part was when Helena and Hermia started playing "set set set me me me" Singapore style. Was a nice twist, cos the acting prior to that wasn't in the local context. Then the lion dance head appeared, and I think that made the audience relate to the play better, while adding some humour as well.

Next up is King Lear. Anyone wanna watch that?

My fave fairy who was selling the programme booklets before the show.

Waiting for the performance to begin.

The sweetest couple there heh.

The venue.

[Desaru May 07]

Been MIA for the past couple of weeks. Can't really remember what I've been busy doing..but yeah..pretty busy. Heh.

Went to Desaru for a short weekend trip with Flo a couple of weekends ago. It was a really good trip, to replace my diving trip which I couldn't go for cos of some reason I shall not anounce. We left on Fri night, and by the time we arrived at the resort, it was supper time so we had room service (as usual heh) and went to bed. The travel agent told us that compared to the first choice hotel we wanted, this one was RUSTIC. Thank god it had air con lol. It was fine by my standards, since it was such quick planning. The only thing that really sucked was the breakfast. The rendang and the fried ice cream we had at dinner made up for it tho =)

On Sat morning we took a long drive to Kota Tinggi to see the waterfalls there. I've been there before so it wasn't much of a big deal to me, but Flo enjoyed it tremendously. She went hiking up the hill a bit with the Singaporean couple who came along on the trip while I took some pics and dipped my legs in the water. Too bad I didn't bring a change of clothes, or I'd have loved to venture into the water and get a natural hydro-massage. Ahhh..the thought of it.... Our venture there was cut short by a downpour, and Flo, who's always our hero, ferried us one by one using the only umbrella we had to the guide's car. We went shopping after that, I had a pretty good time buying stuff I needed at really good prices. We were supposed to see fireflies that night; but after learning from the couple that we'd been cheated of RM80, we decided to confront the person who arranged the trip for us. She couldn't keep her story straight, between trying to convince us that we'd been charged the correct amount and trying to answer my question of why we were charged more for the same trip. In the end, she gave up and just said...ok if u're not happy then I'll return u RM60. Although that was still short of RM20, I was happy we got any refund at all. yay. Our firefly trip was cancelled cos we were pissed with them..oh well...I guess I'll see them next time.

We spent Sat night at the lounge, and it was good simple fun. After dinner, we played some pool with S and D. Well, actually it was just the 3 of us cos S was..erm..still a beginner. Heh. They seem to be a cute couple...I love it that they've travelled a lot of places tog. D's a really smart guy..studying in Cornell and all. But hmmm..I find him a tad bit nerdy. Lol.

Sun morn we rose early to play the gokarts the moment the shop opened. In fact, we were there so early (overestimated the time we needed to walk there since we didnt wanna depend on the unreliable service at the resort) that the place was still closed. Apart from the numerous mozzie bites we got (luckily no dengue), I think we all had a thrilling time there. I overtook Flo twice..and she got all grumpy..tsk tsk. Then on our last few rounds, I wanted to overtake her again...but...oops....my back wheel hit her kart. I didn't realise what had happened actually, till the guy there and S & D told me. In fact, I initially thought that she was the one who hit me lol. The gokarts were in pretty pathetic condition, so after I hit Flo's, mine didn't wanna start anymore. I somehow managed to spin Flo's gokart 180 degrees...so for the last round, she went in the opposite direction. Haha. Was a funny site. Sorry sweetie...I'll be more careful (and less competitive ) next time haha.

The next bit was the best part for me. I'd been wanting to jetski for ages, and I mean AGES. Since Redang, since Pattaya, since Bintan...since forever. So when Flo said the day before that she didn't want to do it, I was almost devastated, but some part of me was so determined that I didn't care if I had to do it alone. But in the end since the couple wanted to jetski, we split the cost between the four of us. And the time too. Instead of 30 mins, S & D got 15 mins, Flo and I 7.5 mins each. Don't ask why we went separately. Another hilarious story to that. And Flo will kill me if I announce it here. KEKEKE. We were dead beat after those two adventures, but it was just nice cos it was time for us to go home.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot to mention. I saw a giant crab there. Haha.:) More of Desaru here.

flo crabby