Starving Artist

Got this from a friend's blog:

The Personality Defect Test

You are 28% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Starving Artist! You are more intuitive than logical, and are primarily guided by your heart and emotions. You are also very introverted and gentle. Of course, this does not mean that you do not have an ego. In fact, you are surprisingly arrogant for someone so emotional and gentle. This is why you are best described as a starving artist. You are very introspective and quite sure of yourself, as any accomplished artist is, yet your views are impractical, guided by feelings, and overly gentle. You probably find math, logic, and similar intellectual pursuits offensive to your artistic sensibilities, and you prefer the open-endedness of artistry because then you know you can never truly have a wrong answer. So really you have no reason to be arrogant, you big doofus, because the skills you value (emotion, spirit, art, etc.) in yourself are valuable only on a subjective level, meaning your arrogance is purely masturbatory. In short, your personality is defective because you are arrogant, introverted, introspective, gentle, and thoroughly irrational...posessing most of the traits needed to be a starving--and useless--artist. So get out there, write a few short stories that are allegories for the spirit, and starve!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

Lessons of the day

1. We have a prof who's obsessed about apoptosis.

We had a presentation today...topics were interesting..ranging from "A cup of tea a day keeps cancer away" to "Cytokines and GI cancer: A Double-Edged Sword". And all this fellow could keep asking was.."How is this molecule related to the apoptotic pathway?" For the benefit of those who don't know..apoptosis is how cells commit suicide. What pissed us off was that even in Advanced Cell Bio (a yr 4 module), the prof kept stressing that we didn't have to know the pathways cos they can always be looked up. And here comes this guy who asked nothing other than what the pathway consists of. Grr. I was panicking at 1.45 cos I just realised I didn't bring my hardcopy of the presentation, where I wrote down a lot of stuff to say. So I just read off the slides and crapped about whatever I could remember. Oh well, I think it was pretty ok except for the stupid apoptosis qs. Went home feeling more liberated..now just one more test to worry about.

2. Apoptosis is overrated.

Sooner or later everyone's gonna blame everything on apoptosis.

3. They speak Swahili in Tanzania.

4. It's nice to feel loved. =)

I seem to hunt out the gays

First it was Stephen Gately from Boyzone. And just a few weeks ago, Sakura told me Mark Feehily from Westlife, whom I used to go ga-ga over, came out too. Ahem..interesting...

Auntie came..

A pretty rare occasion these days..heh. It was pretty fun, tho I was supposed to be doing my presentation instead of playing host. We had tandoori chicken, chicken curry, prata and banana pengat. Yum yum. After breaking fast, we were pretty bored cos there was nothing good on tv. My auntie resorted to waxing my legs for me and Jamila wanted to sing karaoke. Hope they come again some time soon :)

Feels good to be wanted

Met up with my auntie n cousin yesterday at Kaslynet's Singapore branch opening. She was angry that I haven't been calling her as much as I used to (which wasn't very often to start with heh..). I didn't have any excuses...it used to be "I don't like calling" but that didn't apply cos she's my fave aunt. Then I said I didn't like calling cos she's on shift work so I never know when's the right time (hate calling ppl at the wrong hour). Then she let my cousin use her hp for some time so I couldn't get her "directly" (forgot that land lines still exist) and now..busy with my modules. What a terrible niece I am. Inviting her over for buka today. Hope the curry I'm gonna make will be good enough for guests heh.

Mum did pretty well at the launching yesterday. She was the MC of the show. Flo almost won the lucky draw...some inattentive guy suddenly realised his number was called so since 43 was the replacement number, he got it instead. Boo. (I'm competitive, if u don't already know that..) Then number 42 was called out. Woohoo! But till now no one knows what I won (I wasn't paying attention anymore cos I was still bitter that guy got our sunglasses lol). According to auntie it's something worth $75. I hope it's a massage voucher..yummy. Anyway shall just wait for the voucher to be delivered...

We went off around 10 o'clock. The taxi queue was long and few taxis were coming in. The horrible smell (of urine??) at the place (Golden Mile) was awful. Hope Bangkok doesn't smell that way haha. We went to Al-Amin in Woodlands for supper. There was pretty good food there. We had tandoori chicken, roti john, mutton chop...and I was broke by the time the bill came. Suppers are fun..we should do it again some time soon :)

Clear is Mud

Does this happen to everyone or only me? When I'm bored at the bus stop or simply talking to myself (u do that too, don't u?), I have loads which I wanna say on my blog. But when I'm actually here, in front of my comp, like right now, I'm like "Hmm what shall I say?"

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Ok let's pretend I've written a whole lot of stuff. Wanna sign off by saying this to my "daughter": Thanks for listening n not judging :)

Do u believe in fairies?

I do! I do! At least for yesterday heh. Sakura and I went to watch Peter Pan at the Esplanade yesterday. We went to break fast first at ljs. We were giving ourselves a time limit...eat till 7.30 so that we can reach esplanade by 7.45. In the end, we were done by 7.15 so we took a stroll to esplanade. The place was nicely decorated as always..but unfortunately our digicam is spoilt so we had to stick with our phone cams..and really tiny pics. It was the premiere show and the theatre was full. We were surprised to see so many ang-mohs there...and boy were they dressed up for the occasion. We went to the bar outside the theatre...but decided we were still full to get anything to eat. Plus we had to save our tummies for dessert later.

The show was simply awesome. It's been a longggg time since I've watched a musical (caught les miserables in london last yr). It was definitely worth every dollar...even tho Sakura kept wow-ing at the fact that i bought pretty good seats (Nth row). As always, I always become infatuated with the main character - Peter Pan (a.k.a. Michael Lin). He's simply soooo talented - acting, singing, dancing, doing acrobatic stunts...flying!!! Haha. I'm just so amazed at how a bunch of kids...hardly even 10 can perform so professionally. The lead singer was also very impressive. During the intermission we went back to the bar...had no choice but to buy a tiny bottle of apple juice which cost $4!! Oh well, living the high life. Haha. Sakura and I were tempted to enter the "private reception" some company was having...we were even ready to make up stories as to how we were part of the "marketing" department. Lol. The rest of the show was as brilliant. During the finale, Peter Pan even flew over the audience (the front part at least). I was busy looking out for his rope till I realised I should just enjoy the sight. Heh. They performed one more dance (the main theme) at the end of it all. It was extraordinary. Most of us even gave them a standing ovation till the curtains came down (ok the lights went off actually..but well..u get the drift..). It was such a feel good show, we felt like we needed another dose of it.

After the show ended, we headed straight to the booth to buy some memorabilia. We bought the programme and the soundtrack. Was broke by then but what the heck. Heh. We headed to Max Brenner later on. I realised that I promised to bring Sakura there like last Oct or something...and well..it's already a year now. Haha. But better late than never I guess :P We had chocolate fondue and milk choc suckao. Sakura was pretty excited about the whole thing and we took turns melting the choc bits for the suckao. We left the place at about 11.45pm...called for a cab since the queue was so long. It was a fun outing (understatement). And I'm glad I've found myself a kaki to go to musicals with =)

Perplexity

Going thru' a tough time now. Someone close just found out that she's probably gonna go thru one of the toughest periods of her life. And my insecurities are plaguing me like hell. I'm beginning to wonder whether I'm a tough person to be with.. Do I ask for too much? Am i demanding? I hate my insecurities. I don't want to blame my past for it, nor the ppl ard me; but I dunno what to do.

I want ppl to know the real me. Who I am. What I do. Does everyone have a wall around them? Am I a coward to hide behind this wall?

I hang on to ppl too much. And yet I wanna live life as a hermit. What a contradiction. Sigh...