Wednesday, April 30, 2008

[double celebrations!]

Firstly, my exams are over! Woohoo. And they're over for good! At least until I decided to torture myself with another degree, which I doubt will happen anytime soon. Haha. Although it was a right decision to do my Masters as soon as I graduated, it's been kinda exhausting working and studying at the same time. And this even after I've had it pretty easy, with my boss cutting some slack (or so I think heh). I guess this was sort of an "optional" degree so I didn't see it as a die-die-must-get kinda thing...lacked the motivation in that sense. Plus after 4 years of undergrad, u really do need a break from studying. It gets too much sometimes. But of course, my choice in taking it immediately to keep up the study momentum had its payoffs. One of the most important factors was that at least I wasn't scared of not having sat for exams for a long while, which many of the older graduate students feared. And then of course course material were (relatively) fresh in mind - which meant I did not have to rely on extremely [note: extremely] heavy mugging to remember what went on during Bio 1101. Heh. I also have a lot of friends who have gone on to have children - who had the mentality "I'll do my Masters later." But the later never came. Ha. And with 3 children I don't think it will ever come. So yeah, carpe diem. Do it while you can! Oh and another advantage, I don't have to worry about looking after my kid and mugging at the same time; I really admire the mums who managed that! Kudos to you!

Ok so much rambling, but there's still my thesis to go. Ah...wonder when I'll get down to that. For now, I'll just be high on the fact that my modules are overrrrrr and that biostats was actually a breeze. I actually got worried that I finished one "round" in an hour. Kept checking and rechecking the paper to look for errors...and still had plenty of time left after that. Not that I was sure of all my answers lah...but at least all the blanks were filled up lol. I was so relieved that I even had time to look up and smile back at the lecturer haha. And the review questions she gave were a pretty good (and terribly obvious) hint to what was coming out..so yay to that too heh.

Went to Vivo with Sakura to celebrate; and if she hadn't stopped me, I'd have, in my euphoria, spent $25 x 2 on Gold Class tix to watch The Other Boleyn Girl. Heh. So as a comfort she promised to give me Gold Class service for a movie on my birthday. I'm writing it down here girl, so I'm not gonna forget! Haha. Don't forget to serve me good food and chilled drinks and check on me every few minutes whether I'm enjoying the movie. Lol. We settled for Definitely, Maybe only because it was at a suitable time and the only other movie we knew. The movie was like...god..really lame and super cheesy. It's like cheesy from beginning to end so yeah, unless you have absolutely no other movie to watch or are in a really lame mood, or you're in the mood for cheese (oh no I'm getting influenced by the movie) please DO NOT watch it.

Another good news I had this morning was that I published my first ever paper with me as the first author...yay! That's definitely motivation to start working on my thesis. Woohoo!

Friday, April 25, 2008

[confidence]

You know he really cares when he digs up (yucky) stats notes and studies it for an hour while u're asleep just so that he can explain to you what confidence intervals are.

=)

Monday, April 21, 2008

[woes]

Seems like this isn't gonna get any easier. First there was the need to balance both of them being happy. She being hostile with him, he being hostile with her. Each not focusing on the occasion at hand, but rather their own childish bickering leading to animosity.

Just when things calm down, new situations arise. Personal aims become more important than being part of a larger entity. Selfish goals lead to abandonment of responsiblity. Apparently a trip like this isn't as important as setting up an education system for a bunch of strangers. Don't ask why I don't understand you. Because I simply do not. Makes me think that I should have stuck to my original plan.

Although the first matter got resolved, albeit in an unpleasant way, something else crops up. I can't believe you invited him - him of all people. Do you not understand the struggle I went through, do you not realise the pain he has caused me? Even if you don't understand that, were you not there everytime he ruined an occasion, were you blind whenever he caused a nuisance at our gatherings? Do you think things change overnight and he'll be an angel now? Again, I am speechless. I have only one thing to say - if you still insist on it, you will be solely responsible for ruining my special day.

I can only pray, that things go smoothly.

Friday, April 11, 2008

personal time

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For someone who's as on-the-go as you, the greatest indulgence of all is a hearty dose of rest and relaxation. Charming and fun, you love spending time with family and friends, but there's also a mellow and quiet side of you that relishes time alone with your thoughts.


Whether you like to take long walks, catch an afternoon blockbuster, or check out a hip new art exhibit, you like exploring the world on your own terms and learning more about yourself in the process. Not one to harp on the past or obsess about the future, you have a confident and graceful way of savoring each experience as it comes.

Monday, April 07, 2008

[9 days]

9 days passed by so quickly. It started with the anticipation of picking you up at the airport. Did I look alright, would you be excited to see me, would you enjoy the trip? Where are you...did customs hold you back, did the visa not work...cos so many are out already? Tick tock, tick tock, I grew more nervous. And then finally you appeared. Finally I see you again. Yes, dreams do come true.

It was fun showing you around town, as bad a guide as I was. Hey I know Sthlm better, next time I'll show u around there haha. I started feeling a bit like your PA, telling you who you'd be meeting, when and where tonight. I'm glad meet-the-dad session went superbly; then again, I think all the meet-my-family/friends sessions went great. Wee :)

I enjoyed our moment on the beach. If I had known how terrific it felt to just sit beside you all day gazing into the horizon, I'd have spent the whole day there. But then again, we needed to get the ring, so first things first. Haha.

Thank you for putting up with a 10-year-old brat, thank you for putting up with a terrible guide and a driver with a terrible sense of direction. Thank you for making me talk, thank you for opening my heart up. Thank you for coming.

Till we meet again...

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me
I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words tonight

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me


Thank You For Loving Me - Bon Jovi